I Think I Get It Now.......

For so long I just kept asking why. Why me? Why did my son have to be the one to die? I think I get it now - not necessarily why but rather that things happen - they shape us and make us who we are. We can choose to let the hard times suffocate our living or choos to live.  I'm not saying I wouldn't take it all back if I could. I remember those first few weeks after we lost Daniel where I just couldn't see my life past tomorrow. One day at a time.....but now I can live. I'm trying my hardest to live and its because of him. I am so grateful for Daniel - he is the reason why I do things some times - things that I don't think I'd ever do if it weren't for the tremendous amount of compassion and sympathy that he has helped to foster the growth of in my heart. I needed a reason why, but now I know.

Going Back

I hate re-reading something I've written even if simply for the purpose of editting. I just briefly went back to 2009 and read some of my posts. I'm so glad I wrote down my thoughts and the things that transpired during this time. I couldn't stop crying of course - its so easy to forget things but it is so important to remember. I'm going to have to grab some of those posts and put them some where because some of them are pretty amazing and I don't usually say that about the things I do. Write....I'm glad I did.

Love, Love, Love This Quote

When someone dies, you don't get over your grief by forgetting, you get through your grief by remembering.

For there is nothing more you can do than that. <3